Argh! 19 days! My frequency is seriously screwed up! My last trough was 24 days (peak at 46). Average was 34 days.
Sigh wonder if something’s wrong or am I stressed..? I just remembered thinking how emotionally neutral I felt recently. I’m usually angsty prior to my period.
I sometimes wonder if I would just burn out. I heard that people can do it for 2 years tops. I’ve been at work since November 2008.
This is what the doctor said. This is what I have. Been prescribed slow swims: no more running, cycling and kayaking for the next month. I now want a Segway to take me to and fro everywhere so that my damn knee will heal faster!!!
Sigh. Sucks.
What is happening??!?!??! It’s going to be another long and drawn out story (not that it isn’t already)! Gaaaaah!
I guess I feel more out-of sync with the world than usual. I curse and revel in this status.
Also, I keep staring at the pink lines on my calendar.
I feel like an idiot now. Of course I will be brushed aside once again, the girl never learns her lessons. Now, again…
Putting their birthdays in my calendar
Marking the days they are gone
Keeping things for no other reason than sentimental value
Thinking of how, even if they may not like you like you like them, you’re still incredibly fond of them
Making connection with their favourite things
Wishing I knew what to do
And burying it somewhere but visiting it a lot
Ah, foolish, foolish, sentimental things.
1) It’s dangerous! Singapore roads are crazy to ride on! I need to find more bike-safe routes! I have bought a helmet and airhorn.
2) Takes some discipline to do.
3) Route planning is fun.
4) Folding bikes have some scope for laziness. However, once you’re on the bike, you just feel like going on until your butt gives out. Hahah.
5) On a related note, I took a cab twice. Once because there was no bus that goes directly to the office where I was (Kovan — well, okay, there was but it would take far too long) and the other time I was exploring and didn’t manage my energy/stamina and was too tired to make it all the way back home.
6) I love public transport more. Once you get into the cool air-con — you just don’t care about the number of people squeezing in with you. They might even give you a wide berth because of your sweatiness. Hahah.
7) On the downside, no folding bikes on MRTs until 9.30am. It rules out a half MRT commute. Sigh.
8) Puddles are everywhere, especially with the rain. My bike gets pretty muddy by the time I get to office. I’ve taken to cleaning my bike after lunch time.
9) I have found a way to shower very quickly. Rinse, put shampoo and soap, rinse and you’re out of the shower. I hope to accomplish this sequence in shorter and shorter time.
10) Pretty fun to ride from the office after work and go anywhere on a lark. I know I’m usually dead tired after work but once you get on the bike, it just perks you up to have the wind on your face and enjoy the cool evening.
11) I haven’t tried riding at lunchtime but it’s unlikely I’ll ever do it because it’s too damn hot. Early morning still okay as the sun just got up and evenings are very cool. Noon? Not so much. By around 8.30am, the sun starts to really get in your face.
12) It’s nice to have a rack to hold your stuff. Taking a backpack is a bit hot.
13) Did I mention the mud?
14) I think I have carpal tunnel. Shouldn’t grip the handlebars too hard. Right now, I still have a weak grip. Hope I can survive the kayaking today.
15) Legs and butt somewhat sore but not too bad considering the exercise I do do work different muscle groups.
Paddling under the towering bridges and buildings was the highlight of the my experience. There’s something about it. It’s not the same awe you feel from being in nature but perhaps the opposite end of the coin. These structures are a marvel of engineering and seeing them rise above the waters is really something.
“Hellen will u marry me? Freya” — my favorite text at the installation in front of SAM.
The satellites in front of the National Museum was crap. This year was generally not as fun as last year’s. I felt it lacked the carnivalesque feel and the performances were less catchy and stop and watch-able. I didn’t like that some of it was quite closed off although for the burlesque and bdsm-themed one, it’s still understandable. But not being able to see a music gig because the place was too small and there was only a live feed (and soundless)? That’s just ridiculous.
So not the best night festival all in all. But good for seeing the exhibitions if you don’t want to pay to see them.
Where did it go wrong?
I feel like a failure today. And I wish I knew what I could have done. I feel as though as I hadn’t lived up to responsibilities and frustrated that I lack the experience in managing others.